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Nike... just do it. [15 Jan 2006|11:57am] [ mood | satisfied ] Last night was a night I have needed for so very long. It was amazing. I may still be feeling speedy, but I can manage to control my scattered thoughts to convey some deep appreciation. You rawk, hardcore. To everyone else: Uber heavy show, first of the year, at the Sterling Hotel tonight... and if you're not there, you suck at life. Support local music, it makes you faster. post comment

[11 Jan 2006|07:31pm] So I sit... smoke-filled room... 4 walls slowly closing in... I'm in so deep... I can barely keep my head above water... I was treading for awhile... And I'm exhausted... I'm drowning now... Don't want anyone to see... How much I struggle... How empty I feel... About where I'm going... Places I've been... Things that have been done... Keep me from being truly free... Still treading water... Still keeping my head above it... The water is cold and dark... I keep looking for the light... Reaching out my hand... Wishing... Hoping... That someone can see... The pain behind my eyes... The blackness in my heart... The bruises have faded now... The terror will always remain... I'm falling under... Can't hold on any longer... Too tired to care... Will anyone notice if I just let go? post comment

[02 Jan 2006|10:09am] [ mood | sleepy ] So... didn't get much sleep last night... 4 hours to be exact... but, all is good. Only work a few hours, then home to go back to sleep... But, here's the pics from my first supper with my new roommates. Woo... de ja vu, I'm sure I've seen a picture of Jamey cooking chicken parm before... hmmm... And, notice the mayo on the table? I'm just glad I'm not the only one who does weird things to their mashed potatoes :) post comment

Way to go... [01 Jan 2006|09:02pm] So... I spent the last few days moving in my new roommates... They're both totally awesome people, I think this will be fun... My living room actually has furniture in it again... And people are here too, for me to talk to... This almost is beginning to feel like home again... My new year's eve was awful. I acted like a total cunt and I feel so bad... I should have just sucked it up, put away the shyness for one night, and dealt with it... There wasn't supposed to be any drama... This was supposed to be simple, and I was going to get good and fucked up and have a ball... That definately didn't happen... so, maybe tonight at midnight I'll be nice and trashed and get that kiss I was supposed to... post comment

You Monkeys! [28 Dec 2005|10:00am] Crock's was awesome... If this one wasn't so blurry... it could have been a demo cover! Jon This is a good one of Maty And I don't know who this guy is, but I hope he shows up at every show from now on! You rock, Joey! Jamey, the money shot! post comment

Here's to my 2006 being better than my 2005 [28 Dec 2005|09:48am] [ mood | sleepy ] My ten layers... LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE Name: Jenna Birth date: 02/04/1982 Eye Color: blue Hair Color: blonde, for now Righty or Lefty: righty Zodiac Sign: aquarius LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE What Shoes Did You Wear Today: fuck shoes Your fears: ending up alone Goal you'd like to achieve: join a gym, get a better job LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW: Your most overused phrase: he/she/you suck at life Your thoughts first waking up: sunlight bad! Your best physical feature: eyes Your bedtime: sometime between the sun setting and rising... Your most missed memory: WWK parties LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK: Pepsi or Coke: MONSTER McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King Single or group dates: both can be fun, depending on the group and the date Lipton Tea or Nestea: YUCK! Chocolate or vanilla: I love chocolate, but my attitude is SO vanilla... Cappuccino or coffee: chai tea LAYER FIVE: DO YOU? Smoke: like a chimney Cuss: Fuck no Sing: very loudly and very badly... someone should mike up my car and listen in on the concert in my car on my way home from Pats... Take a shower: daily Have a crush(es): hmmm... lets think about that one... Think you've been in love: i know i have Like high school: i hated it then, but i've changed a lot since... Want to get married: yes Believe in yourself: no Get motion sickness: if i read in a car Think you're a health freak: no way! Get along with your parents: i try Like thunderstorms: yes LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH Drank alcohol: yes Gone on a date: define "date" Gone to the mall: yes Been on stage: no Eaten Sushi: yes Been dumped: no Gone skating: no Gone skinny dippin: no Dyed your hair: yes LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER Played a game that required removal of clothing: no Gotten beaten up: no Changed who you were to fit in: ehh... i'm a chameleon LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLDER Age you hope to be married: before i'm 30 Numbers of Children: two Describe your dream wedding: barefoot on a beach somewhere... How do you want to die: quickly and painlessly What country would you most like to visit: Australia LAYER NINE: IN A GAL/GUY Best eye color?: blue Best hair color?: blonde/light brown Short or long hair: shorter, but not shaved Best first date location: something simple and romantic LAYER TEN: IN THE NUMBERS Number of people I trust: totally and completely? 1 Number of CD's I own: I get mp3s pretty often, i've got lots of CDs Number of piercings: ears twice and tongue Number of tattoos: 3 Number of times been on TV: none that i'm aware of Number of times my name has appeared in the Newspaper?: i dunno Number of scars on my body: quite a few, never counted though Number of things in my past that I regret: I don't regret... post comment

hmph [25 Dec 2005|05:11pm] It's been a very lonely Christmas... I woke up this morning, and didn't want to leave... I was feeling sad, and I called him because I'm weak and careless... Now I sit here alone... While everyone I know is sitting down to dinner with family and friends... realizing I have no one... There is a place I could go, but they don't understand... I don't have the heart to tell them the whole story... So, I sit here in my solitude... Thinking what beautiful pain this is... And, for the last few days, all I have needed is some quality sleep... which i have managed to get today... But it's hard... When I'm here alone, this doesn't feel like it's mine anymore... And when he's here, I don't want to sleep, because my greatest desire is his company... post comment

What? Did they pay that guy thousands of dollars? [18 Dec 2005|07:11pm] [ mood | tired ] Yeah, so, the photographer at this show must have gotten paid tons of money :D Something sexy about those sweaty singers... And Joey... guy who's in awesome band who lets random girl, here with the guy with the camera, come smoke and chill after the show totally rocks! post comment

Wow... [17 Dec 2005|08:56am] [ mood | giggly ] [ music | Crappy Christmas music at work ] The show last night was amazing... I am so glad I went. I really wasn't going to go... something about me going out and having a good time just didn't feel right... but I needed it. I'm still burping beer this morning... next time, I'm going to have to sneak a drink in =) Oh, yeah... people who work at Arbys at 11:45 at night, people who make it take 20 fucking minutes to figure out how to get to the goddamned drive-through, morons who let the parking lot turn into a sheet of ice, people who can't figure out how to take an order for 2 fucking things, "you got that order there, buddy?" yeah, this is for you... FUCK YOU! You suck at life! post comment

The shit has hit the fan [15 Dec 2005|07:14pm] It's reached it's climax... it's all downhill from here. Hopefully we can all put the pieces back together, grow and learn from this... and move on. To Sarah and Aaron, I love you both so very much. You will always be my brother and my sister, no matter what. Not time or distance will ever change that. I'm sorry to put you all through this. I'm sorry I couldn't do this myself... but this was bigger than him and I... and for all the pain we all feel right now, this will be better for everyone in the end. I'm giving up the apartment, moving back in with my parents. This is not what I want... but that was our place, and it's not now... something doesn't feel right without him here. Too much pain, too many memories... I need to pack it all up in a box and put it away... I can make it through this... it's what I want, I think. But be there for him. He needs it. post comment

Inspiration comes at the strangest times... [12 Dec 2005|08:29am] [ mood | contemplative ] 50 things about me that you probably never wanted to know: 1. I want to kiss you in the rain, and I want you to mean it. 2. I love my tattoos. 3. I will never love anything as much as I love Ben and Jerry's half-baked ice cream. 4. I am afraid to sleep alone. 5. My dog talks tough, but he's a big wuss on the inside. Dogs DO reflect their owners. 6. I'm addicted to Chinese food. 7. I am at my most vulnerable in the shower. 8. Sometimes, I'm not comfortable in my own skin. 9. I used to hate high school when I was there, but now I look back and wish I could be there again. 10. I hate the way I look. 11. I love my hair when I don't blow it dry, it's all crazy and curly. 12. I would live in my day-glo pink pajama pants if I could. 13. I would never wear a bra ever again if I didn't have to. 14. I hate underwear. 15. I love to lay in fields and stare at stars. 16. I have a secret hiding spot where I go to when I need to think. 17. I love to sing, and I am terrible at it. 18. I wish I could be more intelligent. 19. I love my tongue ring. 20. I love to listen to Howard Stern. He's a lot like me. He can speak intelligently, but, deep down, he's just a dirty old man with a good heart. 21. I hate school. 22. I love my job. 23. I love guys who wear hats. 24. I watch TV a lot. Some would say I am addicted. 25. I love fresh flowers. When I live alone, there will be fresh flowers here always. 26. I'm a huge disappointment to my mom. 27. I love having long fingernails, but I can't have them because of my job. 28. I change my hair color more often than I change my oil. 29. No, I don't know how to change my own oil. 30. I like to watch porn. Especially if I'm not alone. 31. I eat when I'm stressed. 32. I'm eating right now. Carmel corn. At 8:30 in the morning. 33. I still believe in Santa. 34. I'm very emotional. I cry a lot. 35. I was a wanna-be skater girl in middle school. 36. I went to Catholic school through 4th grade. 37. I'm happy to fade into the background. I hate attention. 38. I'm very shy. Especially around new people. 39. Once you get to know me, you'll never get me to shut up. 40. I love to watch a guy's toes curl. 41. I hate shoes. 42. The only thing I hate more than shoes are socks. 43. I will never hate any person. Ever. 44. I drink an ungodly amount of Mountain Dew every day. 45. I have stuffed animals from when I was born that I still sleep with every night. 46. I have never been in trouble with the law. 47. I fall in love easily, quickly, and hard. 48. I'm not very good at art, but I love to create it anyway. 49. I use plot lines from TV shows to relate to things in my own life. I'm a dork. 50. I don't believe in myself, but I am a daydream believer. post comment

Quiz time! [05 Dec 2005|07:35am] [ mood | bored ] What Makes You.. by SheBangs12 Your name? Your gender? MaleFemaleOther What makes you sexy? Everything What makes you pretty? Your hair What makes you loveable? How sexy you are What makes you fun? Your quick wit What makes you irresistable? Your talant What makes you cute? How you kiss/hug Quiz created with MemeGen! Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan Your name is... Your kiss is... mysterious Your hugs are... gentle Your eyes... burn into my heart Your touch is... heart warming Your smell is... refreshing Your smile is... entrancing Your love is... unique Quiz created with MemeGen! YOU ARE A TRUE AND ROMINTIC LOVER. YOU WILL HAVE ONE TRUE LOVE. Are You a True loving Partner? brought to you by Quizilla post comment

boo-hoo [03 Nov 2005|01:50pm] friends only, will post more details later. post comment

took a bunch of quizzes cause I was bored... [18 Oct 2005|07:23am] [ mood | bored ] Rest In Peace... Which Buffy Musical Song Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Your boyfriend is Spike. Who is your Buffy boyfriend? brought to you by Quizilla There's a Unicorn inside you. You are very beautifull and mystical and you love to get attention. You always have a lot of feelings and you always think about that. You can be hurt very easily. You mostly don't talk about your problems and put them away in your mind. Don't do that, just throw all that bad feelings out and you will see it will make you stronger. Your friends will be there for you so remember you will never be alone. What Mystical Creature is in your soul? ( With Pictures) brought to you by Quizilla Painful love is what is deep inside of you. When you love, you love with your whole being, and therefore, you get crushed if or when it ends... You are deep and sorrowed, wise far beyond your years. You don't say much, but your thoughts are never still. You aren't of this world. Please rate aaaaand... eat chocolate bars? What Love are you Fated for? ~AWESOME anime pics!~ brought to you by Quizilla post comment

So *bored* [13 Oct 2005|02:07pm] [ mood | bored ] 1. Ever been given a ring? Yes, one with a big diamond on it... 2. Longest Relationship? almost 6 years now... 3. Last gift you gave? Jessica got a gift card to Target when she left... 4. How many times have you dropped your cell? Not as many times as people would expect... 5. Last sport played? does sex count? lol, guess basketball 6. Things you spend a lot of money on: my apartment, my dog, food... 7. Three things you ate last: nothing so far today, yay! Yesterday, I had popcorn and a cup of soup. 8. What you notice first about the opposite sex: eyes 9. One favourite song: tough one... I still really love "Lover, lay down" by DMB... he had it playing when i lost my... you get the idea, but it was so sweet... 10. Where do you live? Allentown 11. High school you attended: Parkland 12. Cell phone service provider: TMobile 13. Favourite mall store: New York & Co 14. Longest Job held: WildWater Kindgom (4 years) 15. Do you own a pair of dice: yes, several (no sex dice though) 16. Do you prank call people: no 17. Last wedding attended: Joey and Anna 18. First friend you call if you won the lottery: Probably would call my mom first, then my friends... 19. Last time you attended church: does a church wedding count? If not, then probably about the same time I moved out of my parent's house... so, like 4 years... 20. Favourite fast food restaurant: Burger King 21. Biggest lie you’ve heard: "you're beautiful" 22. Where do you work?: Wegmans (Photo Lab) 23. Where do you go to college? LCCC, for real estate 24. Can you cook? Yes, but I bake better than I cook... 25. What kinda car do you drive? Toyota Camry (I've crash-tested them myself, they hold up well) 26. Best kisser? I've kissed so many... Dave was one of the best... there are a few others that stick out in my mind... 27. Last time you cried? yesterday... 28. Most hated food: steak and pork 29. Thing you like most about yourself: my personality (I think that's what all the fat girls say...) and my eyes, and my boobs... 30. Thing you hate most about yourself: the way I look 31. Have a secret you can’t tell? Yeah, a big one :( 32. Longest work shift worked: 11 hours, open to close when my boss was out for 8 weeks and I had to manage the lab... 33. Favourite Movie? House of Sand and Fog, Labyrinth, Neverending Story 34. Can you sing? In my car, alone, windows up, really loudly... 35. Last concert attended: Linkin Park (before they were "big") 36. Favourite Restaurant: Amigo Mio and Carabbas 37. Last movie rented: I, Robot... cause Will Smith is so hot! 38. Favourite Alcoholic Drink: Kamakaze shots and Don Pablo's margaritas! 39. Thing you never leave home without: my fake Coach purse and a picture of my dog 40. Reason you did this survey? cause I'm bored at work... waiting to go to the bar tonight... post comment

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